I really needed to see this today
I've been really down in the dumps after getting the "official" word on Tuesday that I'll be out of a job on June 30. Actually, I'm afraid I'm sliding from "down in the dumps" to "clinical depression". I hate that I'm just so.....sad.
For almost four years, all I've heard is how important my job was...what a great service to the community...how meaningful it was. And now?
Eh. Not so much.
I think that's what bothers me the most. That and the fact that I have no fucking clue as to what I'll do now. I do know that I'll never go back to hospital nursing. I not only don't want to, but physically, I'm pretty sure that my bum knee just won't handle the 8 or 12 hour shifts anymore.
Frankly, I'm not even sure I want to stay in nursing, at all.
I've been really tempted to pick up the cigarettes again, too. In fact, I want one...right now. But I won't. I've come too far to screw it up now.
This perked me up a little, too. It was just so pretty.
We had one of those pop up spring showers earlier this afternoon...while the sun was still shining, even...and the rainbow and the unusual cloud formation was (were?) the result.
Ah well. I'll snap out of it, I'm sure.