Depressed, dejected and disgusted
Will she or won't she be
This'll be the first weekend since we've bought the boat that it will be decent enough to get it out. If not for that fact, I'd probably sit out on the deck and drown my sorrows in a margarita...or six.
Hell, maybe I can kill two birds with one stone. I'll sit on the boat and drown my sorrows with a margarita or six.
I'm depressed because after June 30th, I'll no longer have a job.
I'm dejected because I friggin love my job, my boss and the people I work with, and not only am I being pink-slipped, the job itself will cease to exist. There's no possibility I...or any of us...can be called back.
Poof! Gone with the wind.
I'm thoroughly disgusted with the whole friggin government...from the White House to the State of Illinois...oh, especially with the State of Illinois...right on down to Peoria County.
It's the trickle-down theory in action, doncha know?
My head understands that grant money is grant money and general funds are general funds and never the twain shall meet. My head also understands that you have to live within a budget and be fiscally responsible...especially with other people's money.
But my heart is having a damn hard time accepting the fact that, while five or six ...what I consider to be essential programs...not to mention 35-40 positions...are being eliminated, they continue to hire Executive-Directors-of-This and Administrative-Assistants-of-That; they continue to plan a total remodeling project; they recently bought property that sits adjacent to the building because they need more room.
Ya know, that kinda shit just plain hurts.
I guess they'll have plenty of room now...with damn near a quarter of the employees gone.
I suppose I shouldn't be so surprised. I mean, we are talking about the "government", after all. And since when has anything they've done since signing the Constitution really made any sense?
There are so many things about this action that are just...wrong.
I really don't think that the powers that be have any idea the impact that this will have on the people we serve and the community as a whole. I don't think they really understand just exactly what it is that we do.
And I'm pretty sure they could give a rat's ass about the people's lives they're totally fucking up. Oh, I'll be fine. But there are an awful lot of other people that won't. And that just breaks my heart.
Ah well. I just keep reminding myself...it's the government and the government's being run by politicians.
Why should I be the least bit surprised?